Brief July update where I mispelled brief about 3 times before getting it right:

In my last post (a few months ago, sorry!), I mentioned that 5SOS would be releasing a new CD and that my hopes for this breakup letter in audio form were high. Very high. I have good news reader(s). They succeeded. So much so, I now own three 5SOS shirts and 2 copies of Youngblood (I have my reasons which hopefully I’ll remember to explain!). My aussie boys have made me proud. But first, I have some things I want to talk about. So, this is…A Brief Update for July 2018 (I only write the year because let’s be real guys, I might not update until next July after this!)

First things first. Excuse my language, but holy fucking hell guys. Twenty One Pilots are officially off of their hiatus. I mean, they’re still being cryptic and weird, but like, that’s why we love them, right? They were on a year-long hiatus. We heard absolutely nothing from them. The only stuff we got was…Well, almost nothing. There was an occasional social media post by someone that’d be like “Hey, is that Tyler from TOP?” but, like I say occasional, and I mean, I think I only saw 1. They had not updated the band’s twitter or Instagram in a year. And neither Tyler or Josh said anything on their personal accounts. So, then this website appears. I’m not gonna get too into details because I honestly am still a little confused myself, but this is around March. Right when Panic! started talking about their new CD. This website was weird and cryptic and there were certain things that made everyone think it was indeed related to TOP. And then, Friday (July 6), they sent out an official email to fans subscribed to their email (which I had done in March because 1) why wasn’t I subscribed in the first place? and 2) seemed like a good idea). This email was also cryptic. The subject was “ARE YOU STILL SLEEPING?” and when I had opened it I wasn’t sleeping since I had been awake since 4 am because I had to be at the store at 5. So, no guys. I wasn’t. I was awake. And FREAKING THE FUCK OUT OVER THIS EMAIL THAT WOULD NOT LOAD THROUGH THE JOANN WIFI WHILE I WAS ON BREAK! I went home and looked at the email. It was a gif of an eye. The eye itself was yellow and had a gif of some scene playing on it (it looked like a horse and some fire or something? I don’t know to be honest!).

I want to make a separate paragraph about the yellow. This means that TOP’s next era will have the color yellow in it. IF THIS IS NOT GOOD NEWS TO YOU THAN I DON’T KNOW WHAT IS? Yellow is my favorite color! This means yellow merch! Yellow t-shirts! Yellow hoodies! Yellow…WHATEVER! I’m so happy! Also, new music, but YELLOW!

So, basically, Twenty One Pilots are probably going to have new stuff soon and we’re all ready for it. So. Ready.

Next: I finally saw The Neighbourhood live. It was…Well, amazing. It was at Summerfest, so it was a shorter set and it was harder to see. Summerfest, if you’re not aware, is…an experience. It’s been going on since the 70’s and is Milwaukee’s pride and joy. Well, okay, one of Milwaukee’s pride and joys. Situated right on Lake Michigan, the Summerfest grounds are like another world. Every summer for 11 days, Milwaukee (and Wisconsin) comes together at the lakefront for a whole bunch of concerts, beer, and fried food. I only partake in 2/3 of that (I hate beer). Anyway, each night there’s a headliner at 10 pm for each side stage and one huge one at the amphitheater that you have to pay extra for. I’ve seen the Jonas Brothers and Foo Fighters there before, and it’s always fun but expensive. Your best bet, however, is to go to the side stages where you can see as many bands as you want in one day for just the price of admission. I’ve gotten lucky before because a lot of times I’ll go for one band and have it be that the band before them is one that I also love. This has happened 3 times to me.

In my short 24 years, I’ve seen (not including the amphitheater): Sara Evans, The Goo Goo Dolls, Switchfoot, Brand New (2x), Kevin Devine and the Goddamn Band, Manchester Orchestra, POD (like, I’m not even sure how that happened, I don’t listen to them and I didn’t at the time either but they weren’t bad), and was somehow conned into watching a song or two by Def Leopard just because I wanted a lemonade but was like 8 and couldn’t get one alone. Now, I can add on Lovelytheband and The Neighbourhood to this list.

When I saw Brand New, both years I got lucky that they had someone before them that I liked. The first year I was so excited to see Kevin Devine in person because I really enjoy his music. And then, the second year, I hadn’t even realized they were playing until Manchester Orchestra introduced themselves. My love for Manchester Orchestra is immense, and their newest CD A Black Mile to the Surface is something extraordinary. They actually played at the amphitheater this year, but I had no one to go with and really didn’t want to pay for grass seats. Like, that’s where I was with the other two I went to there. When I was in high school and was a total music snob once I found who Brand New was, Manchester Orchestra was one of like three other bands I listened to, so like, I have a deep love for them. I wish I had seen them outside of Summerfest, just because I always prefer a more intimate show than a larger show (except for maybe TOP). This year, I also got lucky, because I like Lovelytheband, and I love the Neighbourhood, so it was a good time.

Anyway, the actual show: Firstly, they played Prey and I just about died. I love love love that song. If the amount of ‘loves’ I just wrote don’t tell you how much I love it, then I don’t know what will. There’s just something…So good about it. The guitar is probably my favorite part about it, but to be honest, it’s just so much fun to sing along to and I also remember that it was one of the songs I had on repeat when Wiped Out! came out. Also, sometimes you can hear the others doing the backup singing when they do play it (I couldn’t really, but I’ll get to that later like everything else I’ve promised). Zach kind of has a voice of an angel and Jermey? Well, he’s pretty out of this world when he does backup vocals (look at their older acoustic sets where he sings!). Obviously, Jesse was really good live, too! They didn’t, however, play Wiped Out!, which bummed me out because while it’s not my favorite song by them, it’s a solid song and I’m so curious to see it live. However, the song is like 6 minutes and it’s probably longer live because it’s one where you can really mess around with (if you’ve heard it, maybe you’ll understand where I’m coming from). They did play Sweater Weather, in case you were wondering, and in case that’s the only song by them you know. It was good live. Like really good, and once again, the guitar part is my favorite (but it’s my favorite guitar part out of any NBHD song). Here’s a video of that:


As you can see, I couldn’t see very well. I also always have trouble hearing with the speakers down at Summerfest. I can’t tell if their speakers just aren’t the greatest or if the location itself is just not the greatest? I think that’s partially why I couldn’t hear the backups for some of the songs, like Prey. I mean they also could have had their mic volume down. Whatever, I still got to see one of my favorite bands live.

Another thing I did was see the Indy Race at Road America again. It was once again a last minute thing (but even more last minute than last year! We were about 30 minutes late!). I went the day before to just hang out with my parents, and that’s always really nice. The weather is always perfect when we go. Josef Newgarden also won the race. He led the majority of it and I kept turning to Cassie and saying “He’s got this”, and she kind of doubted him, but I was right. He had it.

Also, season 2 of Anne With An E is on Netflix, so obviously I gotta binge that.

It’s been a pretty exciting two months, and now it’s just going to be very quiet. Until Twenty One Pilots let us know what’s up, but before that, it’ll be pretty boring. Oh well, it’s what I get for doing so much in two months.

So, anyway, until I can get that review of Youngblood out!


Music I’ve been Liking *Not on a Monday!*

Since I’ve gone to post this at least 10 times since I started it, I thought I should add this:

This was started a while back, and every time I went back to finish it I would lose steam. This has to do with the fact that I personally think that I come across as some idiot. It has nothing to do with the actual content of the post, and more to do with the way it’s presented. This is why I have so much trouble updating this blog, even if I have a lot to say.

That, and inspiration is fleeting.

So, now back to the original post:
It’s not a Music Monday because I’m currently writing this on a Tuesday. Anyway, I’m gonna scrap that idea. That whole “having a schedule” thing on this blog doesn’t seem to work for me.
Since the last time I posted about what kind of music I’ve been listening to, I’ve started to listen to a lot of new stuff. But then it went downhill. I’ve become The Neighbourhood trash and have only listened to them this past week. I do take some breaks, but damn. Their new CD is amazing. I’m not sure if I ever wrote a love letter to their second CD Wiped Out!, but it deserves one. It’s one of my favorite CD’s ever, and my love of it has reignited. Now we’re lucky enough to have The Neighbourhood grace us with new music by them. I’ll write a few separate posts about them. They’ve got a few CDs that I never actually talked about, and I have a lot to say about various songs. I can get at least one post out within the next day or two. Fingers crossed! I know, a total joke, Sara! I post once every 5 months if I’m trying hard enough.

So, instead of focusing on them during this post, I’m going to write about some other bands I’ve been into.

You missed the period where I only listened to AJR. Or rather, I was silent on here when this was happening. I remember there was a period last November where I kept hearing their single, “Sober Up”, on the radio. I was feeling like I knew who they were, and at one point it was true because I kept googling the song. It turns out, the reason it sounded so familiar as 1) Rivers Cuomo, of Weezer, is featured in it. 2) Jack, the lead singer sounds an awful lot like Tyler Joseph from Twenty One Pilots. To the point, where my dad (who is well versed in the Twenty One Pilots’ discography) asked if it was Twenty One Pilots. I became kind of obsessed with this song for a month.

My personal favorite part of “Sober Up” is this lovely part:

“My favorite color is you,
you’re vibarating out of my frequency.
My favorite color is you,
you keep me young and that’s how I wanna be.”

It reminds me of this video game I have called Oxenfree. It’s about a group of teens who wake up some ghosts through a radio. This is all while being the only (living) people on an island. They get stuck on this island and have to find a way off of it while the ghosts torment them. I mean, that’s the simple version.  I guess the whole “frequency” part reminds me of that. If you had played the game or were familiar with it and it’s plot, you would get where I’m coming from.

Around Christmas time, I was digging their CD The Click. By the way, the TOP fan in me had some trouble embracing the fact that it was the real spelling of ‘Click’ and not ‘clique’. Back to The Click. I remember listening to it while I was putting up the Christmas tree. In fact, the only Christmas music I listened to this past Christmas was at Jo-Ann’s. It wasn’t the good stuff, either. I couldn’t get myself to listen to any. It was a little strange. I love Christmas music. Especially the oldies, like the ones sung by Bing Crosby or Frank Sinatra. My mom and I refer to it as the Mobster Holiday Classics. I did fit some of them in, but I only listened to Catfish and the Bottlemen and AJR. “They’re very holiday appropriate!” I say with a gigantic grin.

The Click is an interesting CD, because of how AJR sounds. They use a lot of electronics and kind of mess around with various sounds. I recommend you look at their videos on how they made The Click. Ryan, the guy who does a lot of the interesting tech noises, explains the sounds and what-not.If you’re like me, you’re always trying to find live videos of music on Youtube to see how bands make their sounds, then they’re definitely a band for you. A lot of the songs on the album focus on growing up and how to deal with all the emotions that come with it. I’m talking about songs, such as “Sober Up”, “The Good Part”, “Turning Out”, “Call My Dad”. And it’s all pretty relatable. “Call My Dad” paints an interesting picture. Ryan, (Jack doesn’t always sing!) sings about being at a party, and while he’s met a lot of people and seen a lot of stuff, he still is homesick.

“And now after it all, I just really wanna call

My dad, my dad

I feel so broke up, I wanna go home

No, I feel so broke up, I wanna go home”

I relate to this on a pretty high level, since I am not a fan of parties. Social situations take a lot out of me. I find myself counting down the minutes until I can go home. And while I do call my dad for a ride since I’m still not driving, I in this song, they want to talk to him for some level of comfort. I’m pretty sure I heard in an interview that this song was written while Ryan was in college and living in the dorms. This makes sense to me. Even if your college isn’t too far from home, there is still a distance between you and home. And possibly, this wasn’t even referring to that specific moment. It was probably referring to the part where even when he leaves the party, he’s still going to his dorm room. While dorms are home, it’s not home. It reminds me a lot of this quote from the movie Garden State. I used to adore that movie. I loved this scene where the main character is talking to Natalie Portman’s character. He says:

“You know that point in your life when you realize the house you grew up in isn’t really your home anymore? All of a sudden even though you have some place where you put your shit, that idea of home is gone.”

Before I write 20 more paragraphs about this CD, I’m going to share my favorite song and music video by them. “Weak”:

Jack makes me weak. Ammirite guys????

New Politics have become a thing for me, too. I didn’t like them at first, I’ll admit. It was because Cassie played their one song, “Harlem”, a lot. It’s still not my favorite song by them. It’s not a bad song. It definitely has the classic New Politics sound I’ve grown to understand. Yet, there are other songs by them I prefer. One of which is the song “CIA”. The song has a really strange portion where a child spells out some letters…

“W is a watch.
A is an apple.
R is for rain.”

I couldn’t tell if I was hearing it correctly at the concert. I was in front of the speakers, so at the time I could have been hearing wrong. I’m going to leave this Youtube Video so you can listen to it:

This isn’t my favorite song by them, though. I do like it, but I actually have a few favorites. Most of them are from their newest CD Lost In Translation, which “CIA” is on. One of which is “Tell Your Dad”, another song featuring Rivers Cuomo! He’s been getting around lately. Anyway, it’s kind of got a sweet story, even if he says “I’m not cut out for heaven, and I’m never ever getting married in a church.” This definitely implies he knows he’s not the best guy ever. I’m not cut out for heaven or getting married in a church too, so HEY! Relatable! The other song is “East Coast Thriller”. The first few seconds of that song really pump me up. It’s a great song to dance to. On an Editing Side Note: all three songs are on my “Walking 2.0 playlist”. I play this when I walk on the treadmill, so that definitely says something about how good of a beat each has.

I found that playing live, New Politics really kill it. They’re good at their job. I hadn’t intended on leaving and having their music stuck in my head, but it was. The lead singer also kept making eye contact with me, and I think he was trying to make me dance, but sorry Bud! I was too anxious! I had even gone so far as buying a drink to see if alcohol helped the anxiety. It helped a little, but not enough. Next time they’re in town I’ll dance.

It also seemed as though all three bands were trying to see who could piss off the security more. The lead singer of New Politics, crowd surfed before he climbed on the scaffolding above. So, he took the cake. There was the one security guard, who was the smallest out of them. He would go after the lead singers whenever they did something like that, and he always looked angry. I got a kick out of that.

We went to the concert to see The Wrecks. I’ll get to them after the other opener, though. The other band that opened for New Politics was DREAMERS. I’ll admit that I didn’t even do research on them until the day of. It was kind of sad to me since I ended up liking their sound. In fact, they remind me of another band, but I can’t quite place it. I’m not saying they sound exactly like whoever it is because if they did, I would remember who I’m thinking of. And while I’m typing this, I fell down the hole of watching interviews with them. They seem pretty chill. I wish I had stayed to get a picture with them, but I was hungry and super tired. They also were right there. To the point where I know, they knew we were there. But, once again, I got bad anxiety. It doesn’t help that I’m attracted to all three of them? But, like, what’s new!

Back to the part where I started liking them. Immediately after hearing one song by DREAMERS, I went and bought their CD. I didn’t regret it.

One of the songs that first caught my attention was “Wolves (You’ve Got Me)”. I also adore the music video for their song “Sweet Disaster”, so I’m gonna post both:

They currently only have one CD out, This Album Does Not Exist, but let’s be real guys! That album definitely exists! It’s so catchy! They also have a great cover of The Cranberries’ “Zombie”. Besides liking “Wolves”, my other favorites are “Drugs”, “Come Down Slow”, “To The Fire”, and “Little New Moon”. They’ve got some great lyrics sprinkled in around their songs. Okay, that sounds like it’s rare for them to have good lyrics. I’m not saying that at all. I’m trying to say that among their good lyrics they have really good lyrics. Or at least parts that stand out to me.

One of which, that gets me every time, is this part of “Come Down Slow”

“If you rise too high, too fast, you’ll get the bends.”

There were a few times where I somehow ended up doing extensive research on the Bends. Like, what the fuck? I know. It was around times when I was writing essays on shipwrecks, and I wrote a lot of shipwreck essays. I also do a lot of shipwreck research for fun. I’m not sure why I don’t share any of it on here. That would be the logical choice since I would be sharing what I learn. Rather than being selfish and keeping it to myself. Anyway, I have a thing for artists who reference any water related things. Things such as a shipwreck or in this case, diving things. This is why I was so drawn to Brand New. They have a song (“Play the Crack in the Sky”) that’s about a shipwreck. It’s actually a story of shipwreck used as one big metaphor for a failing relationship. There are several other instances when Brand New makes shipwreck (or watery) references. “Play the Crack in the Sky” is the biggest. So, forgive me if I get excited whenever I hear this part of “Come Down Slow”. I hope I do get to meet the band one day so that I can ask them about it. I mean, what if they also do weird research on shipwrecks? And what if one day they saw an article on the Bends and thought that it would be a great thing to put into a song? Andddd Sara is getting carried away again.

Here’s the audio so that you can listen to it. I hope you enjoy the other part I love when he hits higher notes when he sings about getting his feet on the ground. Also, check out their website because it’s definitely…a trip.

The last band I’m going to tell you about is the reason I even listened to the previous two bands in the first place. The Wrecks. Cassie discovered them on Youtube and played me their song, “Favorite Liar”.  When I first heard it, I was so proud of her for finding such a good jam. At the time, they had an EP out (We Are The Wrecks) with only 3 songs out. They were touring with All Time Low at the time, so we got some tickets and I got to relive my past by seeing ATL. I used to ADORE them. I’d seen them about 2 times before, and even caught Rian’s drumstick the first time. In fact, they were the first concert I ever had at The Rave. So, nostalgia was running high that night. But, I’m talking about The Wrecks. Then they toured with Paramore and Cassie went to that one. Finally, they were back, this time with New Politics, who Cassie was also into. So we went to that.

About a week before they came this time, they released another EP, Panic Vertigo. The title song, Panic Vertigo is so good, as is the rest of the ep. I’m so proud of them, and it’s been cool to see them grow as a band within this past year(?) or so. I’ve never been a fan of a band so early on in their career, I usually don’t jump on until two CDs later, which is a shame. Anyway, here’s “Favorite Liar”, and my favorite song by them “Way With Words”. Nick, the lead singer has a nice voice. And nice glasses.

I’m going to conclude this here since it’s been long enough, and that I could write a lot more. I’ve converted you into a fan of at least one of the bands. If not, that’s fine too! I get that not everyone likes what I like, and hey, that’s great! Hopefully I can write something else soon, otherwise, see ya in another year or something!

What I’ve Been Up To: A March Update 1 Year Later

I’m sorry. Really, I am. It’s been over a year since I last updated. I’ve started countless blog posts and then have proceeded to save them as drafts, only to never publish them. In fact, on New Years, I had written a beautiful post on what movies I’d seen last year and which ones I thought were the best. Then, even more recently, I started a review on the movie In the Heart of the Sea and I have since lost all steam for that because I can’t even remember the points I had for it! That’s a good movie, by the way. It’s got Thor, Spiderman and even Nick Clark from Fear the Walking Dead. Oh, and Cillian Murphy.

You, Reader, (who probably is just me a year from now wondering what I was up to), are probably curious about my whereabouts. Well…I’m still working at Jo-Ann’s. Whoop-de-do! Still a college drop-out! Yay! Still upset that I spent all that money and practically had a few weeks until I got my BA in History, only to…not. Hurray!

I think my biggest reason for not posting was the fact that I’m really embarrassed. And, to be honest, I hate myself. I hate myself so much and every day I have to live with myself knowing that I was so close to being done with school. For some reason, I thought it would be better for my mental well-being to take a “break”.

Well, I have news for you. It sucks. It sucks a lot. I have the education, practically, but I’m a cashier at a fabric store. And, that’s not to say that people who don’t go to college at all and work in retail are stupid. No! In fact, they’re the opposite! They have a shitty job, but they’re smart. They have people skills and they know what the real world is like. I’m just saying that it sucks because I sabotaged my own life. I wanted to do something history related, but I use none of my skills at my job. I think the closest I come to using them is if I decide to take up a new craft and research it. That’s it though. And it’s not where I want to be.

But what have I done since I last posted? Well…

I saw Catfish and the Bottlemen for the second time. My friend from work came and it was really fun. The crowd that goes to their shows is always pretty chill. That and I could die while listening to them and be happy.


A little blurry, but you can make Van out in the middle!


I did write a  post about the first time I saw them live I got to meet them. You can find it HERE, but for a brief rundown: I actually did really well and played it pretty cool. I think they thought my friend who won the meet-and-greet-passes was the fan and that I was just tagging along. She is a fan, but I was the one who loved them. Van was also super sweet and told us he hoped we enjoyed the show. I swooned you guys. Actually SWOONED. And then we got a picture with them and his arm was around me?! That was one of my top 5 life experiences because right now I think it’s safe to assume that they’re my favorite band. I listen to them at least once a day. I still adore Twenty On Pilots, but I think CATB tops them on my list.

I got a tattoo. I’m not sure if it was myself rebelling against the fact that I don’t make much money at all, or what, but yeah. That happened.


My same friend from work helped me design it, and then the lady at the tattoo place added some cool white ink to it. It’s a Three Musketeers themed tattoo, with a fourth sword for my favorite little shit, D’Artagnan. It’s really pretty and every day I get to see it and smile at it. Sometimes I do worry I was a little impulsive about the subject matter, and sometimes I’m sad I didn’t do my original first tattoo idea (little paratroopers down my wrist, but I still have the other wrist!), but at the end of the day it’s there and I’m happy. It’s just something I can always count on. I did get a weird nightmare the second night I had it where I somehow didn’t do the right stuff to take care of it and it was infected, and that one day I woke up and it was just…gone? But that was just a nightmare.

In June I got a little TOO into Fear the Walking Dead. It kind of consumes me. I stumbled upon these surprise keychain packages at Target. I bought a few because it comes with a keychain and a sticker and says “collect them all” and you can bet your ass that one day I will collect them all. I have  1 Nick and 2 Strand’s so far. I got the same Nick keychain (it’s like a picture of season 1 drugged out Nick) and gave the second to Cassie. I told her they were our Druggie Nick Friendship keychains. Every once and a while she mentions that she found her keychain again and it makes me smile because I know she hated that show when I made her try it.

I also went to the Indycar race at Road America again. Races are a really strange experience altogether, but I love them anyway. Even if they’re really loud and smell like gas. You kind of grow to love them. When we were driving in, I saw Josef Newgarden on a scooter. I screamed “Oh my god” and he turned in my direction, but whatever. Leave it to Sara to embarrass herself. I don’t think he saw me. At least, I hope not. I later learned that there was an autograph session at that time and he must have been heading there. I missed another autograph session with him! That’s like the 3rd one! #whenwillsaragetjosefnewgardensautograph?

In September Kingsman 2 came out and I just about died. I saw it twice in theaters ( I would have more but I only had time for 2x), and for Christmas, my brother got me the blu-ray. It was this cool special edition with whiskey stones. I’ll have to use them next time I watch it! Y’all know that movie makes me want a drink because of the majority of it. I also saw Call Me By Your Name and that movie consumed my soul more than FTWD did. I got the blu-ray and watched it the day it came out on blu-ray. I really want to watch it and do a post on it because recently someone brought to my attention that Elio kind of alludes to being an unreliable narrator. I won’t mention what scene, just because this post is spoiler free (ha!). I think this is extremely interesting and I want to go back and watch it looking for other spots. The soundtrack is also really amazing. It’s got this weird dreamlike quality to it, much like the film does. It’s great for listening to when you’re trying to fall asleep. I bought these headphones called CozyPhones and they’re basically headphones in a headband and they’re comfortable for sleeping with them on. They’re great for insomniacs really. They can be a little quiet, but that’s kind of what I was going for.

More recently, I’ve been really into Anne of Green Gables. I watched almost all of Sullivan’s adaptions and have watched all of Anne With An E. I want both on dvd. I think I really would drop $200 for the special edition of the 80’s versions on blu-ray. I cannot bring myself to watch the PBS version from 2016. It just…Anne’s hair looks fake and even in the trailers for it, you can see that her freckles are painted on? I also heard that they really played down Gilbert’s part, and that hurts my heart. That little punk turned out to be a lovely man.

it’s yellow, my favorite color!

I really think Amybeth McNulty is really truly Anne, although Megan Follows is the original Anne. But if we’re being technical, McNulty looks more like what I picture Anne to look like from the description in the book. I bought that pretty yellow leatherbound copy of the book from B&N. I started it the other day, but haven’t finished yet. Part of me wants to take my time, the other part of me is like “Sara, you’re 24 and you haven’t read Anne of Green Gables. What the fuck are you doing?” I plan to write some more about Anne, the books, and the various adaptions. Maybe I will watch the PBS version for you guys? I don’t know! There’s also a new adaption of Little Women set to air in April or May on PBS that I’ve been dying to see. I remember reading that in 3rd grade. I should really reread it because it’s been so long. I also need to rewatch the Winona Ryder version.

I rewatched Four Brothers the other day and now I’m having Jack Mercer feelings, so that’s never good. I just have a lot of love for him as a character and for that story. I was paying close attention to his aversion to violence, and I really want that character study essay. Guys where is it? I would totally read it! I guess I’ll have to write it! I’m going to rewatch it again sometime this week because it’s just…eating at me? This happens sometimes. It’s kind of happening with Murder on the Orient Express too! That was a good movie, even if there were some unnecessary changes, but I really enjoyed the fact that Bouc was likable. And hot. The soundtrack and scenery for that movie were breathtaking, too. So, again, I’ll have to rewatch it.

Enough rambling! There’s so much more I want to say, and I hope I get enough momentum to say it. I have a lot of new music I want to talk about it. More books and movies! Youtubers! Podcasts! History! Oh, I’ve missed you guys so much! I bought a new computer a few weeks ago and I’m totally in love with it, so hopefully, that’s enough reason to write more. Hopefully! I’m so sorry I neglected this blog for a year. It was awful and I should be punished for it.

I hope you’re all well and I hope you stick around! See ya next time!

New Year, New Me. JK.

Well, 2016 has died and 2017 is here, and yet I don’t feel hopeful. I guess that’s besides the point, though. I mean, where have I even been since October? At least I hope you’re wondering this. Most likely not, but just in case you are: I haven’t really been anywhere. Just here. I would try to say that work has taken over my life, but that’s not true since it’s just a part time. So what have I been doing? Here’s a quick rundown of my life since I last posted:

  • I went to a rad Halloween party the day after my birthday (Oct 21 is my birthday, fyi)that Cassie threw, dressed as Cinderella from the 2015 movie. I even bought the costume, and bought a shit-ton of makeup at Ulta (even caving and buying a Tarte eyeshadow palette that cost me $49, but it was basically a b-day present for myself. Also, some beautiful lipstick from Tarte too). My parents bought me some boots to go along with the dress, and even though shoes are kinda a big deal for the costume (ya know, glass slippers and all…) I was not impressed with anything I came across that was supposed to be for a Cinderella costume. In addition to that, it was October. The middle of Autumn, and the party took place at an airplane hanger because that’s how cool we are. So anyway, I needed shoes that would keep my feet warm, withstand nature, and look good with a dress. I am so gross because I advocate the Combat-boots-skirt look. Not even sure if that’s fashionable, but I’ve been doing that on my sets on Polyvore for years, and no one’s commented on how bad it is. It’s still gross to me, but also beautiful because while I don’t wear skirts a lot, I love me a good boot/skirt combo, and Combat Boots are my fave, so why not?
  • November was nondescript, except that I bought myself a sewing machine. I know, wtf? Oh…And I saw Awolnation and Bastille. Okay, so that’s a little more than I let on. I went to FM 102.1’s Big Snow Show night 2, which featured Barns Courtney, Andrew McMahon and the Wilderness, Awolnation, and Bastille. Out of all of them, I really enjoyed Bastille’s set the most, despite me going to see Awolnation mostly.
  • December came and went pretty fast, and quiet honestly, I was kind of depressed all throughout Christmas, but I still had a nice one.  New Years Eve was at Cassie’s, but there was some drama going down that continued into January. However, I had a lot of alcohol, and while I didn’t get drunk, it was enough to make the night good.
  • January was also nondescript. I cannot think of anything that happened, except maybe watching A Knights Tale at my buddy Jamie’s house. And seeing Sing. Oh, also La La Land, but my seat was in the front row, so I didn’t really see it.
  • And here we are in February, where it’s almost just as boring, except that I’ve made two pillowcases so far with my sewing machine, so that’s cool.

I won’t be promising you any posts, because I seem to be notorious for promising a review or a post on something, and then it never happens (like that first Twenty One Pilots concert?), but I will try to post more often this year. Hopefully it will be quality content that brings the followers in. Which reminds me, I actually gained a few in the time since my last post. Hey new followers! Sorry my blog sucks! So, anyway, peace out. Until the next time (which hopefully won’t be 3-4 months).

Podcast Roundup: Because you didn’t ask for it, but I did

So, I’ve been pretty obsessed with podcasts as of late. Before I start my new weekly post that will probably be neglected every other month, I want to begin by thanking the girl in my history class my junior year of college that told me about Stuff You Missed in History Class, which began my obsession in the world of podcasts. I’ve talked about a few of them, and will probably just include some in this first podcast round-up for a little refresher, but also include some others that I’ve listened to.

  • Stuff You Missed In History

    As listed above, it’s a podcast about, you guessed it, history! More specifically, history you would not necessarily learn about, unless maybe you took a class on that specific period/place in college. You don’t need to be a know-it-all to listen to this podcast. Usually they explain everything well. The hosts are charismatic, and to be honest, I could listen to them all day.

  • Jim Harold’s Campfire

    I know I’ve mentioned this in a Wonderful Web Wednesday, but since Campfire is a podcast that I can’t seem to get enough of, here I am telling you about it again! It’s a podcast that Jim Harold hosts. Basically within each podcast, many people call in to tell their paranormal experiences. Some of them are really amazing and gave me chills, and let me say, it’s not easy to do that.

  • History Goes Bump

    This is a podcast that combines my two favorite things: Paranormal things and history. Granted, it’s not hard to do, but it’s solely focuses on that, so it’s basically everything I ever wanted in a podcast.

  • The Basement Yard

    Joe Santagato is a popular youtuber that I’ve known about for years, but didn’t start listening to his podcast, The Basement Yard, where he just…talks. Look, he’s hilarious, a bit crude (okay, kinda, sorta, really crude), and keeps your interest. From having his friends guest star on his show, to how his pictures are always being used to catfish people (which I’m not surprised, he’s good looking). Check him out!

That concludes this week’s podcast roundup. I don’t have a set day for these, so for now I’ll just keep them on Tuesdays, so please keep a look out for these posts.

Seeing Catfish and the Bottlemen Live

My memory is going to be a bit hazy because this concert was June 6th, and to be honest, it was a bit surreal. You guys know about Catfish and the Bottlemen because of THIS POST. So, because of that post, you know that I’m totally into them and have a huge crush on Van McCann. You can imagine how excited I was when I found out that Emily won Soundcheck passes for their concert. I was ecstatic. I mean, I had gone to bed but ran back downstairs to tell my mom that I was going to be able to meet them. I was so excited, I’m not even sure how I slept that night (probably trazodone).


This is what transpired.

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Sara Update

So, as promised, here’s that much anticipated and much requested update on my life!

First things first, I went to two concerts since June, which I will be writing separate posts about because they’re too great to not write about. Also some pretty significant things happened, so…When I am not so lazy, I’ll post the pics and videos from them in their posts.

Health-wise, I’m okay. I left school because of my mental and physical health. I still get vertigo every once and a while, but it mostly occurs around moving vehicles. It’s extra bad when I cross the river bridges by Cassie’s apartment because you have traffic on one side and the water on the other. I told her and Emily once that I needed blinders, like the ones the horses have. I think that would work well. My ears are still a little messed up from the ear-infections, and occasionally I think I have an infection again. I found a doctor down here finally, and had some blood-work done. Apparently I have a high deficiency in Vitamin D. Cassie pointed out that everyone in Wisconsin does, but I think maybe in addition to the lack of sunlight I’m getting, something else is causing it. However, it does explain my stomach problems and why I’m always tired. I now take Vitamin D once every week, but it’s only been two weeks, so let’s see how things go in another 2 weeks.

I started therapy again. I really like my therapist. She reminds me a bit of my therapist from High School. Very calm and relatable. It helps that she has a cute little office. Therapy is obviously a good thing for me, because I seem to be better when I’m able to talk to someone about my issues. I’m also driving every once and a while, which is more than what I was doing. Hopefully I’ll get my license soon-ish. I don’t know. I still am not fond of driving. I like the way it feels and I have my own truck, so I wouldn’t be vehicle-less, however, I don’t trust other drivers. It really doesn’t help that my neighbor got shot at during a case of road-rage  somewhat near here, back in April. He’s alive still, but I think it added to my list of driving-anxieties. But, Cassie takes me out driving sometimes, and we’re still alive. She also said I wasn’t a bad driver, so I mean, that’s something. I still have to drive on the freeway, which I am TERRIFIED of. I think it’s more the getting on and off that scares me, not the speed. Who knows…

I have decided not to go back to Lawrence. I’m not sure where or when I will, but in the future I will be finished up my B.A., but it will be somewhere down here in Milwaukee, most likely UW Milwaukee. I am sad thinking about not going back in September, but then I remember that all of my friends have graduated and I realize that I would only know about 3 students, and I mean “know” in more of an acquaintance sense, and since I left partially because of my depression and anxiety, I think it would not be good to put myself into a situation that would leave me depressed for 3 months.

Instead, I decided to work for a bit. I spent all summer searching for jobs, and even had a couple interviews, one at Nordstrom Rack. Unfortunately, because I only have experience in a dish room no one wanted to hire me. Except, last week I applied for Jo-Ann Fabrics and got the job! I start Saturday. It’s only minimum wage, but I’ll be working 28 hours a week, which is more than I did at school, and so I’ll get a little more money than I did. Maybe I can be promoted in the future. Who knows?!

I’m extremely excited about this new job. Working in a craft store sounds like fun. I myself am crafty, but don’t craft much at all. If that makes sense…I have no money, so I am not able to invest in the resources needed for crafting. I taught myself how to knit in  college, and also painted in High School. I want to get into sewing so I can make my own things, like Halloween costumes. I know that Jo-Anne’s has classes, so maybe I can sign up for those. All in all, I’m really looking forward to this (AND MAKING MY OWN MONEY AGAIN!). It feels like things are starting to finally go somewhat right for me.

I hope you all are doing swell. Anyone else get a new job? Having driving anxieties? Go see their favorite bands? I promise those posts are coming up! Have a good day/week! TGIF! KINDA.



Sorry I haven’t been on at all since April. I’ve been on a leave of Absence from school for health problems, and would have been graduating June 12, so you can see how I’m just really sad right now. I’ve watched a lot of movies, however, and will have things to say. Hopefully I can get myself to write about them sometime this week or next week. We’ll see. Until then, sorry!

The 30th Anniversary of Chernobyl

Due to popular demand by me, this is my obligatory Chernobyl post for the 30th anniversary. I’m not going to write a large, 5,000 word essay about the event and it’s consequences, because I know that you’ll be able to read several articles from major papers online from the event. Not only that, but there are many scientific reports on the incident if you’re into that kind of stuff. Instead of a long-winded post, I’m going to create kind of a mini-masterpost about the event. I’ll include articles you can read, books I’ve read/am reading, even pictures.

Chernobyl Children: This is an organization that helps with the children who are still living in the zone are are still suffering from Chernobyl.


  • USA Today’s AMAZING Interactive Article
  • Wall Street Journal’s article: This article is really interesting because it visits the topic of the new cover for the reactor. Currently, the sarcophagus is the only barrier between people and the contaminated reactor. Except, the sarcophagus was built in a hurry, so it wasn’t built well, or with good materials. It’s been falling apart for years, and was only expected to last for about 30 years (so, basically it’s expired). The new cover will go over the reactor sometime in 2017.
  • History Channel’s article: This gives 8 facts that you might not have known about Chernobyl. Not to toot my horn or anything, but I already knew all of that. You might not, however! It’s a quick and interesting read which visits facts such as the wildlife boom after, the cleanup process, and even talks about how the Soviet Union tried to cover it up.
  • US New’s article: This article gives a quick look at the numbers (i.e. deaths, amount of land in the exclusion zone).
  • Nat Geo’s article on the new tomb: This is another article about the new tomb being  constructed. They interview a Liquidator (someone who was n the clean up team after the accident), as well has showing some really cool pictures.
  • Nat Geo’s other article about the animals of the exclusion zone.
  • An Interview with Gerd Ludwig: This is an interview with a photographer who was one of the first Western Photographers to get access to the reactor. He also created a book with pictures of Chernobyl called “The Long Shadow of Chernobyl”, which has been on my wish list for years. I remember holding it once while I was a Barnes & Noble. It was kind of a religious experience for me.


  • The Sky Unwashed by Irene Zabytko: A fictional story about an old woman who is displaced from the explosion.
  • Voices from Chernobyl by Svetlana Alexivich: Gives first hand accounts of people who were effected by the accident.
  • The Boy from Reactor 4 by Orest Stelmach: Book one of a series about a boy who lived in the exclusion zone. A really interesting story that also involves the Ukrainian mob. FUN STUFF! I don’t know about the newer books in the series, or if this is still happening but when I bought it, some of the money was donated to Chernobyl Children, which was the number one reason why I bought it. It ended up being a good read. Unfortunately, I haven’t had much time to read the second one, which I do own. I need to finish that…
  • All That is Solid Melts Into Air by Darragh McKeon: A book that I have yet to read, but own. It apparently looks at the collapse of the Soviet Union, using Chernobyl as a focal point.
  • The Long Shadow of Chernobyl by Gerd Ludwig: I mentioned this book above. It’s a collection of photographs of Chernobyl by Gerd Ludwig and its kinda expensive, which is why I don’t own it. Yet.

Besides these, I’ve read several other books on the topic for essays, but won’t list them because there are MANY and a lot of them are really boring if you’re not that into it. However, if you go to your local library, or your universities library, I’m sure you’ll stumble onto a jackpot of resources.


Good Photography:

This wasn’t as long as I was hoping, but I am going to have to conclude it there. I’ll probably add on to as time goes on, because I am always on the lookout for more stuff on Chernobyl. Hope this was helpful and also remember that if you say that Chernobyl Diaries is your favorite movie I will judge you hard.

Until next time!




Music, podcasts, and other things

Whoa, hey guys! I wasn’t planning on updating at all today, but I noticed that I had 9 visitors Monday, (which, I mean, for me is A LOT), and I thought I would grace anymore visitors Tuesday with something new. So, buckle up guys! This post has a lot of links and videos/whatnot. (sorry, not sorry).

I’ve made little progress in my War and Peace post, due to not having the time (or patience) to continue it. It will happen. I want to remind you guys that I am technically graduating on June 12. There is a ‘technically’ because I’m a credit short, so we’ll see how that goes. And since I have yet to have a job lined up, when I’m not job hunting, I will have a lot of free time. With which I intend to finish that series, along with other long awaited series, such as the posts on Girl, Most Likely (which still get hits even if they’re shitty?), as well as maybe finishing those drafts I have written.

There are also some really exciting things coming up.

First is the 30th anniversary of Chernobyl. Not quite exciting for everyone. In fact, it’s actually a very sad day because not only did one person loose their life in the actual blast, but several (thousands and probably more still to come) more died due to other reasons. Anyway, if you haven’t noticed, I am a history major who is extremely obsessed with history, and one of my specialties (outside of shipwrecks) is Chernobyl. I’m extremely judgmental if you don’t know it’s history before watching Chernobyl Diaries (which is SO bad that maybe one day I will post about everything wrong and disgusting and inappropriate about it ), or if you don’t even think about looking it up afterwards. I try not to be judgmental because nuclear reactors aren’t everyone’s cup of tea, but it’s hard for me. Also, since the anniversary is really soon, a lot of people are writing their yearly articles about the disaster. The most recent that I’ve found is USA Today’s interesting “interactive” article HERE. If you want a more up to date look at links, I’m going to shamelessly promote my twitter HERE. Somewhere I have an old blog post on tumblr about some books on Chernobyl, which I’ll either rewrite, or post a link at some point.

In June, I graduate (as mentioned above). Three days after Catfish and the Bottlemen will be in Milwaukee again, and since I missed the last concert, I’m going to try my best to get to this one and tell Van to please stop wearing sweaters on stage because I’m afraid he’s going to overheat. They have a new cd coming out on May 27, so I hope to get that before the concert (which is probably unlikely due to the lack of a job, but maybe likely due to a graduation?). Based on the latest song released by them, Soundcheck, this CD is going to be hella rad. I really love that song. Check it out:

Later, on June 26, there will be an race at Road America, which is very fortunate for me, since there will be no Milwaukee Indyfest (which is sad because I love the Milwaukee Mile). Then comes Summerfest, which is always a trip. On July 27 is the Emotional Roadshow in Milwaukee, which is Twenty One Pilots’ arena tour (so proud of them!), which I’m luckily going to as well. Hopefully I’ll actually write about that concert because I never got around to writing about the last one! (Probably due to me getting sick AGAIN and then not being well for the rest of the year/ even now).

In addition to all of these exciting things I have, I also have been doing some other things lately. I’ve been watching old Ghost Adventures episodes, and you know, I think it would be interesting to do a few posts about that. They can be so dramatic, but also got some of the most interesting evidence I’ve seen. A new ghost hunting show, Ghost Brothers, just started on Destination Ghosts, I mean Destination America. I thought it was really good. I think I’m qualified to say that since I’ve been watching these kind of shows since 2005, and had an avid interest in ghosts long before that. Anyway, these guys are really funny and did some interesting things on their investigation that I would not have thought of. Don’t get me started on Nick Groff’s new show, Paranormal Lockdown. That show was so damn good.

So there’s those. Another thought is maybe going back and re-watching Murder, She Wrote and reviewing episodes. I just listened to a cool podcast about it. I’m a total nerd about that show. I mean, I’m a pretty nerdy nerd, but even the letters J and B make me freak out and start talking about my fave detective JB Fletcher. The podcast I’m talking about is from the Retroist, which I hadn’t heard of until now. You can listen to the podcast HERE or here:

How this came about is kind of a classic Sara internet story. I was watching Dan Bell’s Cutting Room/Floor Video #5, and he mentioned this guy who puts up old K-Mart music on I had never heard of, and being a weird history lover, I checked it out. It’s kind of a jackpot for me. Anyway, I found this podcast listed and it sounded cool and only got better when I saw that they had an episode on Murder, She Wrote, so HELL YEAH.

Also, new music love! I don’t know if you’ve noticed, but my music taste is weird. I literally will go from listening to like, Beastie Boys to One Direction. I’m really open to a lot of music, except for maybe most of the stuff on the radio. Which, kind of makes the sentence before that look a bit weird because I can name about 3 stations in Appleton I’ve heard 1D on, as well as at least 2 I’ve heard Beastie Boys on. Lately, I’ve been listening to a lot of the newer Of Monsters and Men CD. It’s got some great songs, and I just am really digging it. I got Lany’s other EP not long ago too, which is also really good.

Unfortunately, I have developed a new obsession. The thing about me, is that I have an addictive personality. I need something to obsess over, otherwise I’m really restless and unhappy (more so than usual). This time, it’s 5 Seconds of Summer. See, there was a period about 3 years ago where I thought they were really good and I was listening to them occasionally. And then…it kind of stopped. I was kinda like “Eh.” For a while too! And then I was just suddenly in need of their newest CD, Sounds Good Feels Good. And DAMN. It was worth it. It’s so good. I get these Blink-183 and All Time Low vibes.
Even Third Eye Blind vibes and I love Third Eye

Left to right: Ashton, Calum, Luke, Michael. Aren’t they adorable little Australians? (Okay, little is probably a stupid thing to say b/c I’m like only 5 ft tall) but look at their skinny legs!

Blind (something I also listen to a lot lately).  I also want to point out how cute these guys are. The only problem I have is that they’re so young. I mean, granted I’m only 22, but anyone born after 1995 to me is young? It’s just weird. and the oldest of the group, Ashton is 21 and is barely a year younger than me, but on the other hand, the youngest, Luke, is 19? I don’t know. I’m just weird. I guess I’m so used to celebrities being older than me, and now that I’m getting older, the thought of younger celebrities is just weird.


I think a lot of people write them off because One Direction had a hand in discovering them and then let them tour with them. I mean, the other day I was talking to my friend and she actually said: “They’re just not as good as One Direction.” And I was kind of thinking about that statement. They’re not really even that similar to One Direction. I mean, 1D is all older than them. Yeah, on Sounds Good Feels Good, there are some songs where I think of One Direction when I hear them (i.e. Vapors, kind of and Story of Another Us reminds me a bit of them), but then there are songs like Airplanes where all I can hear is All Time Low and Yellowcard. Or, even Waste the Night. It’s kind of a poppy tune, but at the same time…It’s not really comparable to a One Direction sound. In fact, Sounds Good Feels Good reminds me mmore of Radio:Active era McFly than 1D. It just has the same vibes to it that I get from Radio:Active. I don’t know. Here, listen to my favorite song by them: Waste the Night

If you want a bigger look at what I’ve been listening to, listen to the playlist I made the other day on 8tracks below:

So anyway, that’s kind of where I’m at. I had some intense vertigo earlier in the month, and while it seems to have gotten better, it’s still there. Hopefully I’m not dying or anything like that. So, I guess until the next time I feel like updating/finish a draft!